From this day forward

by Tuesday, March 30, 2010 6 palagay

After three years of trying to figure out what I want with my life and pestering God and people around with my emotional swings and stupidity, I guess I'm good and done with Ang Mga Lihim ni Hudas.

Hold your bananas! Hindi ako nagpapaalam bilang isang blogger. Gusto ko lang wakasan ang mahigit tatlong taon pagtatago ko sa mga pahina ng pagbabakasakali at kalungkutan. Narealized ko lang, hindi bagay sa akin ang header ko na masyadong misyeryoso. Nakatalikod, maitim, malungkot. Muntanga lang. Napansin ko lang kasi mukhang walang naniniwalang malungkot ako. Haha.

So there bloggy friends, hayaan nyo akong magsulat ng mga panibagong pahina. Hindi ko talaga inisip na may magbabasa ng mga basura ko nung simulan ko ang dishonest kronikels na to nung ako ay kinse anyos pa lang kaya nung dumating ang pagkakataong binasa ako ng ilang tao na hanggang ngayon ay pikit matang binubuksan ang blog ko, naisip ko kailangan ko rin minsan na mag pasintabi. It does not mean that I blog for only what is pleasing to people who reads. Rather, I blog so that I may be remembered. Basta. You get what I mean. WAHEHE.

I may still write in wrong grammar, bad composition, and with misspelled words. I may still write about loneliness. My writing style will not change and I am still lazy to edit my work before posting. I think it will take me decades to improve my weak points. Pero hey, I want to be more me this time. Korni or not.

It's still fixing-yas.blogspot.com because broken heart, losing spirit and failures I experience need constant fix, a reminder that a I am vulnerable and human. I think everyone is on the process of fixing everyday so I think it is best to retain my url.

My labels/ tags are more organized now. It's my way of starting with a good ass.

*home sweet home
*lupang hinirang lupang hinarang
*he says
*she says
*poetry and stories in between
*amor ordinem nescit
*stargazing
*puta sessions*duc in altum
*everyday prophets
*street lessons
*pensive bottles
*traveling pants
and some more others that I think of.

Plus it's Holy Week. I think it's a good coincidence that I want to be better than before and be at peace with my self after a long time. If God promised to rise from death after the third day, I have my blog as my own Easter promise. I keep my faith to things I know are right. Victor, Earl and Gene knows that.

I exist for a reason. I will try to find my own space under the sun. Bloggers, find yours too.

In medias res neutiquam erro.

In the midst of all things, I am not lost.
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+AMDG

Yas Jayson

Panig sa Diyos at Bayan

To see the world, things dangerous to come to, to see behind walls, draw closer, to find each other, and to feel. That is the purpose of life.

6 palagay:

perdye said...

waw ha.

Kosa said...

at isa ako sa mga tagasunod ng Blog na to!

papalitan na ba ang title ng Blog? wala na ba ang Mga Lihim ni Hudas?

lucas said...

I would love to learn Latin! Very fascinating. Goodluck with your new flights, yas.

melody said...

what is your blog title pala when translated in english???

Jinjiruks said...

Citazione che piacevole avete là. non cambi prego, appena rimanga lo stessi. Spero che stia dicendo la giusta cosa a voi.

Yas Jayson said...

@fergie: di ko naintindihan. haha.

@kosa: alam mo na yan, haha! salamat kosa.

@kuya ron: madali lang. pramis. (:

@melody: uhmm.. an unsatiable urge to write. haha. ganyan kasi ako magpost, trip trip lang.

@kuya jeff: WATDA.