Aliterasyong paulit-ulit

by Yas Jayson Tuesday, March 09, 2010 9 palagay everyday witness puta sessions

Move.

Tama si Paolo. Hindi kaylanman matatapos ang mga suliranin at hindi kaylanman nauubos ang mga responsibilidad. Hindi kaylanman napapatid ang kwedras ng mga pag-aalinlangan at hanggat hinahayaan natin ang panahon na tumagal, patuloy tayo sa pagbibilang ng mga tala.

Sabi ni Abraham Maslow, kaligayahan ang pangunahing pangangailangan ng tao na dapat tugunan. Mapapanatag lang daw tayo kapag ang pangangailangang ito ang nakamit. Kung ito ay ituturing na unibersal na katotohanan, nakakalungkot isipin na marami sa atin ang hindi tunay na maligaya.

Personally, marami akong kilalang ganto. High school friends na alipin ng pampamilyang responsibilidad, bloggers na hinahanap ang tamang tyempo para maintindihan ng lipunan, mga estudyanteng nag-aaral ng kursong hindi nila ibig, mga kolboys at kolgirls na nagtatawag sa telepono. Iba't-ibang dahilan. Iba't-ibang layon. May mga bagay kasi tayong isinasantabi para sa kaligayahan at pangangailangan ng mga taong nasa paligid natin.

Pero hanggang kailan tayo dapat maging payaso? Hanggat nanatili tayong ginagawa ang mga bagay na makapagpapapsaya lamang sa iba, tinatanggalan natin ng karapatan ang sarili nating maging malaya at maligaya. Mali bang lumabas sa kahong ginawa ng iba at gawin ang gusto mo? Hindi naman siguro maituturing na pagiging makasarili ang maging ikaw at tuparin ang sarili mong mga pangarap.

Si Paolo? Officemate ko. Late thirties, son of a pastor and is expected to carry on his father's works. He cannot preach in a pulpit nor hold any position in their church simply because Paolo is a discreet gay, one of the most decent and honest men I know so far. He loves the parable of the prodigal son and probably draws hope from the story that one day, his own father will recognize that he is ever wanting to come home, to be accepted. Sa parehas na prinsipyo, may mga taong isinasantabi ang bigtime nilang pangarap para sa pamilya. Nakakalungkot pero yun ang katotohanan.

Masama bang sundan ang kaligayahan mo maski kalakip nito ang pag-iwan mo ng ilang mahahalagang bagay?

' Kung alam mo lang, I'm dying to return there. Haha. If He really really wants me to serve the people, He'll wait for me even if it will take many years for me return. My family needs me.'

'No. That's wrong. Your family will always be needing you because that is the nature of the family. But you are not created for them. You come from them but you are not to stay in that comfort for all of your life. He made us to serve Him. You only have one lifetime to enjoy and give. You have to get out of your box and decide because it's your life. Sampalin kita jan eh. Sa first mass mo, pupunta ko sa ayaw mo't sa gusto. Basta keep in touch sa facebook.'

He was talking fast. Ako naman tulala habang nagsusuklay sya at sinusukat ang napulot na plastic tiara sa kanyang ulo.

Gusto kong tumawa. Imagine, alas dos ng madaling araw tong usapang ito habang sumasagot sa mga ultra moronic requests ng mga taong hindi marunong mag-activate ng modem. Napakawirdo talaga ng universe. Wala sa timing.

Move.
We could remain clowns and martyrs of our own blinded selflessness but I believe real heroes follow their heart. Truth is never passive. It troubles us and it will never be silent unless we recognize it. Follow your heart they say. So I am taking delight on these beats drumming in my chest. This boy will forever be restless until he gets out of the boxes that hinder him to take flight.

We are all free and no one shall label us nor decide over our fates. We shall dream for ourselves and never allow anyone to limit us. We shall never let others tell what we can only be. We shall be what we want, even if it means leaving home or walking alone. We are who we are for a reason. We are our dreams, our capabilities, our courage.

Move.